Wednesday, September 19, 2007

this that us

hey life,

i'd like to plead with you on a certain thing.
okay i know this sounds absurd but i need it.

please stop getting me into the middle of EVERY FUCKING situation
cos its not fun being middleman.
nothing goes right.
i just wna be there, alive.
not too much to ask for is there.

i just wna have fun
and get myself outta this misery
out of this heartache
out of this skin
just being anyone, but me. do you get it?

theres something wrong with daddy
he's being weirdly weird.

theres something wrong with my friends
and i dont like seeing people upset.
it can be me, but not anyone else

and oh god, stop the rumours please
they are not true, fucking not true.
i never did such a thing, not with her.
stupid people.

last thing, please please
let her know i love her
more than anyth else
and i want her,
but she doesn want me.

well, thats all. hey life, do you hear me?

today was alright
chinese lessons were like hanging lanterns HAHA
photo-taking was whoa HOT (literally stuffy, wearing suits okay!)
yeah, then project work. did NOTHING
unless you count playing arnd on friendster
and talking with xiaotian about the DUMBEST THINGS POSSIBLE.
haha yeah, then down to woodlands lib to meet huiyun then home.

maryboy calls me
HAPPY LITTLE TROOPER :)

nash is COLONEL SANDERS :)
and princess sophie is still PRINCESS SOPHIE :)

nashboy says i can hide emotions really well, even though everybody thinks im really alright cos im high and jumpy and crazy, he knows im upset. yeah.

BOY! you love your little bung! (:
LALA! you dont angry luh!
NICOLE! our little plan, hair styling tmr yeah! (:

"and theres a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up
and theres another around to help us bend your trust
got a sunset in my veins
and i need to take a pill to make this town feel okay"

i love you baby. you know i do.
and maybe you need to hear me say it to believe it
just like how i need you to.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>