Wednesday, August 29, 2007

hero / heroine

its too late baby, theres no turning around
i've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
this is how i do
when i think about you
i never thought that you could break me apart
i keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart

cause you caught me off guard
now im running and screaming

i feel like a hero and you are my heroine

i wont try to philosophize
i'll just take a deep breath and i'll look in your eyes
this is how i feel
and its so so real


do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
and I feel a weakness coming on
never felt so good to be so wrong
had my heart on lockdown
and then you turned me all around

im feeling like a newborn child
every time i get a chance to see you smile

baby let me see that besutiful smile on your face
come, let me wipe those tears away
isn fear taking you a little too faraway from me?
put them aside honey, and you can move a little closer

lets not let fate decide us,
let us, decide fate

we'll MAKE things work baby, put your heart in my hand
i'll lock it up, right in my own.
so only mine gets bruised and bashed,
and yours, safely hidden.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

the black against white

lessons today. gp test.
history lecture was crap, i slept
went to northpoint with them, came back
then chinese compo, i stayed back to do. such a nerd.
haha okay next time i'll trust your instincts! (:

today going home with daryn lynard and huisnain was hilarious
oh my god. i haven laughed so hard in a looooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggg time!
oh my god, we should have recorded that OBSCENE conversation. HAHAHAHAHAHA

"im racking my brain for a new improved way
to let you know youre more to me than what i know how to say
if anyone could make me a better person, you could
you came along one day and you rearranged my life
i must have done something right"

you know you love me
you know you want me
you know you miss me
what the fuck is holding you back?

dont want her to be the one? then come back, and be the one.
cos you know deep inside, i want you to be the one too.

baby baby baby please please

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

the loud thundering cries

<3

the calmed soul with her, with the strong unsettled waves she gives.

go la go la go la irritating ugh

i ate wantonmee for breakfast like nine plus (ponned pe you see)
yeah and eating dinner at like nine+, ten+
and everyday's like that. no food for twelve odd hours.
something bad's bound to happen to my little tummy. :(

but hahahaha what can get any worse right?
i think i might just start to go crazy. beware.

after school today with the boys were super corny! :)
getting drunk and high on whiskey i think!
i drank like one two mouthfuls and like i got lag high
lynard got photos i think!

went back, and me and jihui were i swear our craziest! :)))
we went to different toilets tryna find toilet paper
then we stole one roll out of the toilet
and i gave everyone like two pieces off the roll HAHAHA

debbie say i crazy. ):
its called losing responsibilities.
forgetting who i am, what i really want, for the moment (:

i was like two minutes, I SWEAR TWO MINS late for literature tutorial
and tansulin make me copy the whole of act five ):
LIKE EH I COPY ACT ONE LEH ):

sooooooooooooo irritating right >:(

yeah anyhow, with jihui till late and doing projectwork till nine plus too. FUCK PW!
your jacket smells like aircon! hahahaha
yeah then sent her off into her daddy's car :)

i still got seven pages to copy. fuck what am i doing here.

"dont take too long to say i love you to,
the ones you love,
cos time has a habit of slipping away

and i want you here tonight,
and i need you by my side,
for just one more moment, just one more moment."


the love of my life, where have you been?

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, August 27, 2007

knock knock

honey, paint my love.
its a picture of a thousand sunsets.

hello world. are you gna take me in with wide and open arms?

i think i have a sore throat.

hannah drew horrible looking things on my hand :(
now i cannot rub off :(
and she squeezed my face :(

i talked to lowell today, finding out who his hot date is! like !@#$ dang!
fencing today was H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S :)
nash got jabbed in the nuts hahahaha
and he wore my skirt and BECAME GAY :)
but i never fence :( MY STUPID ANKLE LA.

ankle up for sale, any takers?

love love love

after, out. home with jihui.
funny with me eh :)
i hate almond. like PUKE man.

is it me, you dont see?
is it me?

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, August 26, 2007

hah you?

so superficial
so immature

who's the best dressed
and who's having sex

who has the money
and who gets the harley

who's kinda cute
and who's just a mess

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

thats all that keeps me going

"okay i've got no time i've really got to go bye i love you i miss you crazy and i cant wait to see you"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

my daddy coming to fetch me :(

but jihui is waiting for me at coffeebean :(

:( yuen yee bully me somemore :(

wo bu yao huo le :(

meini is the best

second to belbel
okay fuck i damn lame

all justina's fault.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Saturday, August 25, 2007

you kill me :)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

I LOVE YOU TO DEATH

FRIDAY

missed pe :) did gp compre :(
after school with jihui and lynard and huiyun :)
actually, i cant remember.

SATURDAY SSP

went to pick huiyun that bitch from her house
and we waited SUPER LONG for her.
she called us upstairs, and she was brushing her teeth outside the lift. HAHAHAHA
so funny.

BUBBLETEA AND YOUTIAO TASTES WERID. i dont even know why i tried it. :\
watched rush hour 3 and 40 yearold virgin on lynard's laptop. funny. :)
yeah then waited for jihui to come to school. :)

cheerup jihui :) the sun is brighter on the other horizon.

today IM AT YUEN YEE'S HOUSE DOING PROJECT. :) and belbel coming :)

okay later :)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Friday, August 24, 2007

random! (:

hahahaha i have been having weird conservations with debbie since morning.
she's drained all my energy!

cheer up sarahhhh (: i love you dear! (: see you in mornings whenever i can alright! (: <3

i was looking at my emails then i received one that said
looking for a fuck partner

char: whalao, why they send me this kind of email?
debbie: hahaha i dont know
char: ya la whalao do i look like i wna fuck someone?
debbie: -
char: okay shut up, dont need to answer!

HAHAHAHAHAshe kept laughing after that (:

gppw is boring. im having it now.

sure you can, I MEAN WHY NOT RIGHT.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, August 23, 2007

kiss me here; touch me there

i love you
dont deny it, you love me too
i need you
dont deny it, you need me too
i miss you
dont deny it, you miss me too
i want you
dont deny it, you want me too.

and i know all these, cos you told me all.

step outside your walls back to me
maybe the sun will be warmer than it was.

everything will be better someday char.
be strong; believe.

thanks lynard, funny how you knew i was on the verge of crying on the train
but its scary looking into emptiness

theres hardly anything inside
or is there?
how come i dont feel it.

theres only so much i can say
theres only so much i can do
theres only this amount of patience
but theres boundless love for you.

people with nothing to lose are people you should be very afraid of
bacause they'll stretch way beyond their limits to try
for the one thing that will keep them alive.

remember how you held my hand so tight on the bus just that day.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

its more than words

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

the last unicorn

this computer sucks like hell.
i can take one hour just to get to this bloody page. >:(
HUMPH :(

baby, maybe sometimes its more than words
more than what you say.

afternoons are with jihui :)
yala HUIYUN DO YOU SEE THIS! :)

i did a personality test ytd,
results: im tired and afraid.

and another,
results: i let someone in, but he/she walked out and disappeared and i lost tracks of her.
and now its empty.

dont break me up, by breaking down in tears.

bestie! your new phone dont like you la you suck! :)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

you drive me crazy

every day, i'll be the shadow that walks beside you.
every night, i'll be the light that shines through your heart, showing you the way.
every minute, i'll be loving you, uncountable love, like the number of steps i've walked to get to you.
every second i'll be missing you like the number of words i've poured and ever written to you.
every tear, i'll be crying for every day every night every minute every second that i need you.

it doesn matter if you don't reply even though i'm dying
i'll survive it as best as i can

<3

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

i need the patience to convince her over and over
my life won't be complete without her,
that she's the missing piece.
and i need something to keep renewing this patience over and over again,
to keep trying and trying cos i know we'll regret this mistake.
and i think i have it.
its called love.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, August 20, 2007

Demented screams, tortured beings

open wounds still breathing

monday

"are you still the same
or did you change somehow
i cant fight it; i cant deny it
i still need you
i still care about you
i still feel you
like im right there beside you"

i want you around so i can pretend i dont love her. no, i want her around so i can live it real

lala said smtg really weird this morning!

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

my hair combed, nice shoes tied tight
i was ready to conquer life

walking in the present, but living in the past
how much longer will i embrace sorrow?

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Sir, death of flesh and soul

That same face I caressed
That same skin I kissed
The same tears I wiped away
I almost forgot how it felt
To be in your arms, your warmth
To feel you hugging me so tight
To feel you kiss me again
I almost forgot

Note to brain: please stop replaying that please. its agonising

I wasn sure what I was feeling
I wasn sure what to feel in the first place
What I wanted, alive before me
too afraid to want me,
Too scared to make things right.
So she’d rather watch it slip pass her,
And when im gone,
She’ll think, “fuck I want her back”
And she thinks again, “no I cant im scared.”
So she let fear overwrite everything.

Everything became nothing.

So I stood there and watched her as her tears flowed down
And she looked into my eyes,
With such hatred, and angst
Yet with sorrow and fear
It spoke so loud to me
I gave her back that same glare
“you made this happen; we could make everything alright at first
but you didn’t wna try, you’d rather kill a love so beautifully bloomed.”
I thought I was the one who ought to be crying.
Because she was the one who decided on it.

I wanted so much to stop time,
To tell those Eyes to Smile for me
To whisper into her Delicate Ears
To hold her Tender Hands
To kiss her soft Smooth Lips
To erase the Burdens upon her Shoulders
To hush her Quiet Sobs
To hug her so so tight
To be with her, the person im so in love with.

Hey you, will you end this pain

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

you.

After school Thursday and Friday
Aiyo I forgot what happened
I know Friday was crazy tryna finish up written report. pfft.
OH OH OH! went bubbletea-ing with lynard and nashey and huiyun (that bitch I tell you went off with you-know-who before we were even done with bonding) and jihui of course. :)
Back at school, Nash pushed me into the guys toilet and lynard was changing. hahahaha
And the boys they went to play soccer. Leaving me with jihui and we were hungry
So we went to eat hellopanda. :) fool you.
And sexy Nicole and darling and nippleface were being irritating. :(
FIFTY BUCKS EACH LUH you round up enough money then we’ll do it in your face! ;)

SSP SATIRDAY

Hmm didn’t do anyth except two questions and getting justinana’s to copy
Hannah! You have to tell me what happen okay! :) I WNA KNOW!!!
Yeah and all I did was wait for one o’ clock, so those asses would move and we could hurry eat so I wont be late. Which in the end I was :(

I love you. You know I do.

Yeah went back for more bubbletea-ing with jihui daryn and lynard
I LOVE BUBBLETEA <33
Hey you, Thank you for being there. :)
So went back after, emo with jihui, all the way home
Remember if you wna jump down uh, text me okay.
We go steal police car, kill the policemen
Then on the engine, sit and wait to die
Set uh, but must go buy proper clothes okay! :) We go shopping!
I think we’ll make huiyun jealous, WE get to sit police car :)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Okay I have to go copy homework, later lynard coming to get or smtg!

PS. Bestie<3>:( why Monday so slow. I got things I need to rant and scream and yell and roar and exeunt from my brains and heart and soul and cells and ugh! get it out of me bestie where are you :( <88

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

our love

Is the love I gave her in the past, gna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes.

And then sit and laugh as youre holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you.
Reach in your heart; I know im still there.

And you know you love me
So what the fuck are you doing?

Its not that I don’t wna be with you baby, I do

I can see clearly the sorrows in your eyes
It spoke so loud to me
Hey, did you hear it too?

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

WHEN PUSH CAME TO SHOVE

The last thing I remembered, you were never coming home never
For all the wounds that are never gna scar me
For all the pain that wont consume me
For the fire that will inflict the insane tenderness

If you’ve decided to leave, do it at one shot. Don’t pull me in and eject me out. Don’t.

Give me something to believe in, cos I don’t believe in you anymore.
It’s the fourth time or smtg and I don’t want falling into that torrential pit of tears again.

IBELONGTOME
IDONTBELONGTOYOU
IAMMYPOSESSION
I’LLBEMYOWNAFFECTION

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

its was our life; our life

be careful where you stand,
it might be pieces of me at your feet

everyone i know
says im a fool to mess with you
everyone i know
says its a stupid thing to do

you say i've missed the point
but its you im missing;

and I know that it's so cliché
to tell you that everyday
i spend with you is the new best day of my life

im racking my brain for a new improved way
to let you know youre more to me than what i know how to say

i cant live in a world without you now
all my life i been searching for you
how did i survive in this world before you?
cause i dont want to live another day without you now
this is the best thing
the best thing that could be happening
and i think you would agree
the best thing is that its happening to you and me

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

are you the person im looking for

thank you for the lollipop ;)

and afterall, youre my wonderwall :)

thanks for being there and your brillant ways advising how to reply :)

and no thanks to using up all my brain cells :(

next time we need to concentrate more!

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

i survived you

Yesterday was Monday :)
And jihui didn come school
But I met her after anyway
Yeah we were doing work :) (and laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh)
I swear we were doing her toopid essay
And whalao, all I write one la

Ponned Chinese today
And met jihui to go meet jietrina and babyshanna
But those two didn’t come cos babyshanna had nightmare :(
So it was me and jihui agn :)
And lynard too :)
Yeah we only did three qns
Cos she went a bit crazy

Char: you crazy uh! sot (salt) already uh!
Jihui: hhhahaaahhhhaaa no la im sugar!

Went for mass, old friends yadda yadda

Aiya I have no fucking mood to do anything.
I need bubble-tea. Person-im-looking-for, where are you.

Bestie I NEED TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU.

where were you while we were getting high
this pill, that bottle
in a champagne supernova in the sky

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

and i wish you well

Euge,
I love you.
And there you have me at your mercy again
How you never fail to twirl me round
And leave me with nothing again
Times spent with you, I’ll never forget
But if you can let him in,
I don’t think you love me enough
Well that makes sense to me
And that’s alright baby.
Sooner or later I’ll just get tired and move on too.
But Remember how much I love you.

maybe I was a fool
but at least I was a fool for you.
maybe im crazy
but im crazy for you, about you.
maybe im in love
but im in love, with you.

The lights will shine the brightest, even when im not around
Your smile will be its widest, even when im not there
Your eyes will still speak its thousand words, even if its not for me

Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones
And I will try, to fix you.

Remember this song, I wrote it on your table.

If I wrote you a symphony, just to say how much you mean to me

would you replay it everyday
would you just crush and throw it away

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

i hate you

Consuming myself with anger is my Best Getaway

And I know how you can do this
And I know how I let you in
And I know where im going
And I know what im doing.
I’ll let you in on a secret, I don’t know anything.

The emotions raged to the extremes
Like the scalding hot water
And feel it freezing again.
And again hot and cold, and again.
Feel it, like a waterfall, down the humps of those burnt skin

You brought me high, to throw me down
I should have known you were going back to him
Cos its happened before
And I should have known
Not be so dumb to let you in all over again
And I thought Sixteen would be a nice number
Planned the things im gna say
Planned how I was gna put it through
So you wont have to doubt me Leaving Ever Again
And I was willing to take that risk, for you.

The stars are shining so Brightly in the sky,
And I wonder which one is for me.
Told myself things couldn get any worse
But I guess I was wrong.

My paper heart you Stole
You promised you’d Hold
And keep it Safe for Me
But you didn’t
You shredded it up
Pounded it on that Cold Hard Floor
And gave it back to me
Pieces so small I couldn contain it in my Hands
So it gone Blown away by that
Same wind that blew South
And blew You away from Me

This paper heart bleeds for you
can you feel the blood trickling
can you feel it

Its hard to believe and pick myself up from all these
but at least now, replacing it with anger
I think I might just be able to do it
Finding Another is no hard chore
The hardest is losing it all

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, August 13, 2007

from these wounds

and now i recognize your face and my folly
for longer days and nights this strange redemption'
with words you've bled me dry
now dust falls from these wounds

i will not give in to fascist beliefs and i am not a Fool
i will not let pride in my core be rooted out
i will stand firm on my beliefs
live life the master of my destiny
see no other way to live

who am i kidding?

it may seem at last, days passing mean Nothing
but the sun that sets cause only Pain
violence in Words, like Slashes, wound deeply
Love is not when you feel only pain

Love lost
arrogant whore
paint strife on this canvas
Failure i am a fool
i should have seen

you wont come back, look at you i know you wont.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

the lies; the tries

I cant wait to fall in love, with you
You cant wait to fall in love, with me
This just cant be summer love, you’ll see
This just cant be summer love, l.o.v.e

And I’ve got life waiting for me
And a girl I want to chase
So Please Please Please
Make up your mind so I can sleep well tonight.

You need to know
I love you
But we both know this wont work out the way it did before
I know
You love me
But this wont work
Im scared to fall for the same thing again and again
go back to him, you need him, he needs you

Tonight was studying with nard and jihui :) (My life drowsy medicine)

And I went to sinseh, waited for one whole hour.

Oh my god he press until fucking pain can,
But BRAVE ME haha never scream :)

Anyhow
Im waiting for that jihui to text after finishing her homework
(now who’s the slacker)
and im bored looking through my EoM.

DID I MENTION I FINISH TWO HISTORY ESSAYS LAST NIGHT!
Oboy, I feel so hardworking :)

TO DEBBIE: don’t make the wrong decisions I made. And the sorrow you’ll face. Be strong and do things right. So you wont have to regret it. Maybe sometimes its best we let go. And they might come back to kill again, but we’ll be strong and we'll make it right. Loveyou girl, and it sucks to see you so down.

TO LALA: girl, you need to get clear what you want, and whats best for you. Think carefully what makes you suffers and kills you. Which one does that little pink heart wants. Cheer up too please. :)

yes, dreams are meant for sleeping.
did you read it already?

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Saturday, August 11, 2007

the thought that brings back the fear

Went for ssp today
When there wasn when we got there
Haha wtf

Got pretty angsted up in the morning
Yeah I know its my fault.

Shian Debbie im sorry

I did math today
And hanging out with jihui too much
Makes you really tired
Shes like a LIFE drowsy medicine.

And stupid huiyun and jihui kept making me laugh
People tired can
And I fell down the stairs
And screwed my leg up hooray

Means no fencing on Monday :(
No pe on Tuesday :(

I’ll ride the seas again,
Just as soon as I get over the fear of the waves.

Its not so easy baby.

"I belong to me, I don’t belong to you
my heart is my possession,
I’ll be my own affection”

it gives me that silly grin,
thinking of you slipping your little fingers into mine ;)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Friday, August 10, 2007

how many special people change

I had pizza for dinner last night.
Suppose to eat with lynard and jean.
But my dad decides to throw a temper

After he found my pack that is.

Ah Whatever la.

Have been grumpy all day.

Meeting lynard in a while.

Oh gosh I haven found a day I don’t see lynard.

Cry cry,
Let it out.
No one will laugh at you for being silly.
Nobody’s heart’s made of gold or sliver.
Just let it out
Cry, cry it out.

Do you still miss me like you said you did
Do you really love him

And I love you bestie! <3

“and the thought crosses my mind
if I’ll never wake in the morning
would she ever doubt the way I feel about her in my heart.

If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I love her
Did I try in every way or show her everyday, shes my only one.”


Its not so bad
Youre only the Best I ever had
I Don’t Want you back
Youre just the Best I ever had.


I cant take it, so I runaway and hide
Let me stay here, right here.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, August 9, 2007

i saw this person with his heart broken i suppose,

and there was a trail behind him

the broken remains that were left of him

and i used to think,

i couldn be like ths, cos i really couldn take it.

and i thought it would never happen to me

cos i trusted her when she said she wouldn go

cos she loved me hell.

and i believed her

and left my heart in her hands

well i continued walking on this path

and i turned back to look to see what has happened to me

everything happened too fast

and i found that same trail that i saw from that man

behind me and how long the trail has been

and how she crushed everything that i left in her hands

she crushed it, and left.

shes gone char, she wont come back.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

pour the champagne

here's a toast to those

whose love got sold out.

and to those who sold their love out.



today is thursday (:

yesterday is wednesday. (:


ytd sarah piggyback me to school :)
cos my ankle pain.

then celebrations were okay a bit boring okay VERY BORING.

then we went to watch ALONE.
oh my god the dumbest thing i ever agreed to.

lynard shian debbie hannah peishan justina aishan and maine :D

me and maine was just covering our eyes
and LYNARD kept making us open our eyes.
WE WERE FUCKING SCARED CAN!

after that went home.
met lynard at night to eat ice cream and bubbletea :)

this morning, daddy found my pack :(
and i had long lecture by him.
and jihui thinks he's cute. ?

then i went to sinseh and that guy insisted he pressed not pain,
WHALAO WHO KNOWS BETTER RIGHT! >:(

after, met lynard and brenda and jihui :)
went bubbletea-ing ;)

so here i am doing project again.
can you believe it, we're singing karoke with little belbel :)
shes bloodddddyyyyy cute i tell you!

bel bel: charlene jiejie
char: mmm ya?
bel bel: i want to read and count
char: hahaha okay, whats this? (point to picture)
bel bel: ah? i dont know!

damn cute i tell you!

where is your boy tonight,
i hope he's a gentleman.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

its a new start :)

Today was crappy hahaha

I sprained my ankle and it hurt through the day.
Dreamed for most of the lessons.
Drinking soup for all my meals

Ya lor like that.

Its after school I look forward to ;)

Went bubbletea-ing with lynard and jihui ;)
And after lynard left
we kept laughing and laughing
I don’t know why hahaha

I hope I took it all off your mind,
So at least it wouldn be too clogged mmm? :)

We went back and me jihui did maths :\
Then went out again bubbletea-ing with huiyun nash and JIHUI :)

And after was home with nash

Reasons why nash is a irritaing moron:
1. he licked my arm
2. taught me to watch porn so I could learn
to have sex in case this hot bitch comes up. (im very decent you boy!)
3. then he took my ezlink and gave me his (I CANT FIGURE OUT WHY)
4. THEN he tried to force me to yawn so I would bite his finger and he could scream.
WTH RIGHT!

But going home with you is fun fun :)

EoM now :(

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, August 6, 2007

when you got what you want, but not what you need

i love charlene's flat boobs.
cos i was the one who smacked them FLAT!!!

love,
clar.


haaha crazy pok.

i just sprained my ankle :(

ytd i had training and then out for bubbletea
with lynard and jihui :)

its always bubbletea.

then i went home.
and i had scolding for i swear, NO APPARENT REASON.

whalao. bastard.

lynard boy, you cannot die i dont allow.
later nobody give me talks on life :(

i have three boyfriends : lynard junyan and kenny HAHAHA
i have four girlfriends : debbie eve eleanor kristine HAHAHA

i dont have anything else to say to you.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, August 5, 2007

call me a jerk

hahaha IM ONLINE

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT

AND IM STUCK DOING EoM pfft

BUT HEY HAH HAH HAH! (:


and some part of me was hoping
for that goodnight text
you'd send every night.
even though i'd just talk to you
two seconds ago online.
i was just hoping.

LYNARD YOU KNOW LIFE WOULD BE BETTER SOMEDAY.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

nobody said it was easy

Just came home from downstairs

Lynard came home with me.

And he bought more.

And I just watched him cos I was all READY to go home

And I NEEDED TO PEE >:(

We were with huiyun and her bestfriend before
And trust me they were crazy :)

Yeah I wont exterminate myself for your pleasure
Maybe I would before, but no.
Yeah im moving on, unless you hope I don’t.
Which I wouldn want to, BUT..

I ask questions,
So I wont be questioned.

I keep my profile down,
So I wont be found.

Hey rahh
Twas nice talking to you
All that brainwashing.
But you know very well how we feel
Its just the cover-ups that make it look alright.

Goodnight, sweetdreams like always
I love you.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

the outcome

after schools are mainly with lynard and huiyun and jihui.
maybe its studying or just hanging.

friday i was with lynard and jihui and june, yeah
then after, went with june to j8 to meet ***
yeah had some heart to heart talk or smtg
even though we only known each other not long. hahaha wth.

yeah felt much better after meeting *** and brainwashing bout how shes a bitch and slut all.

so OKAY.

saturday, SSP was alright and i managed to SIT down to get some work done, maths that is.
and after was with lynard and jihui and huiyun AGAIN. yeah twas funny. bonding. hahahaha

I LOVE SATURDAYS.

after was dinner. grandpa's birthday.
met my cousins i haven seen for months
and playing with the baby hahhaha
she kept going, "jiejie. fish."
and i go "see fishy fishy" like twenty times la.

cute stuff.

hmmm sunday was boring as usual, then it was meeting up with old friends and talking :)

now im at yuenyee's house doing my WR and EoM.
and lynard and i are busy folding straw hearts for, hmm i dont know who ;)

im damn lag nowadays.

-"eh are you going out after this?"
--"uh, no"
-"oh then where you going"
--"uhh eh, out?"

damn lag luh me.

"do you know what it feels like
loving someone who's
in a rush to throw you away

do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know
the lock on the door is changed"

if you still read this,
remember what he'll promise.
remember what you promised
remember the pain
think of what you'll gain.
i love you, but go ahead.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, August 2, 2007

listen to my voice its my disguise

today i had pe (:
then i play basketball with kenny and i scored four consecutive (:
PRO IN THE MAKING! ;)

haha yesterday i was late again by an hour plus plus.
lynard and i were doing jihui's Eom for her.
REMEMBER YOU OWE ME TEN LOLLIPOPS. ( plus the previous one, eleven ;)
went to bubbletea-ing with jihui. ;) and talk talk :) then bubbletea
then i sent her back to school and headed home!

sorry i couldn meet you yvonne dear :\ next time, tell me before hand okay! :)

talked to nard on my way home.
and he didnt allow me to go bathe when i reached home :(
then lucky he met his friends, then I COULD GO BATHE! :)

i did chinese compo, and went to bed!

"its finally coming through, with thoughts of you filling up my mind all the time. ;) im gna make this work, just you and i :)"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

hello YOU suck

i spent yesterday STUDYING with jihui :)
eh i studied okay. i did maths!
then i got a little bored and tired
so jihui confiscated my book and made me study.
so i did again, a little, then i got bored.
DIFFERENTIATION IS BORING OKAY >:(
and you owe me a lollipop :)

went home with nard after :)

and i was half an hour late.

watched tv and went to bed.
and jihui was still studying. dang!

today, none of us did econs. :)
but we got our paper back, and hahah i failed, as usual!
and i listened for corrections :)

and im beside nard on my left and we're talking on msn. fool.
and jihui's on my right, doing her EOM or is suppose to do
hahahaha DO YOUR WORK LA, WANT TO RETAIN IS IT.

OKAY i have to go do work too :)

"dont screw him up before his olevels. he needs it."
and dumb me got to reading your folder again and i got upset the whole day.
im gna delete it debbie :) i will. -EVIL LAUGH :) :)

BESTIE im sorry i didnt make it down to school ytd, teeheehee you know why rightt. ;) im sorry sorry next time, i prioritise you first okay! next time next time. ;)
I LOVE YOU!

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

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