Friday, October 19, 2007

running away - midnight hour

remember baby, i love you. so so much. imdyingbaby


love of mine <3dont lie and say that its okay its all right if theres nothing more to say


ill never let you find me
im leaving you behind with the past, no i wont look back
and i, i wanna hear your reasons
i wanna hear you tell me why i should stay
and try, try to understand me
try to understand what i say, when i say i cant stay

i, im moving on from this place,
im leaving and i wont wait, im running away
maybe for now, let me just run
i wna find my own way back
and see where i end up
baby, i loveyou. im missing you real bad.
can you feel me breaking at your feet.
you got me wrapped around you
i can hardly breathe without you
but this is, goodbye

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

FLY FUCK

CATCH ME IF YOU CAN

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

let it roll


excuse me, is this movie over yet?

i'll be alright. i swear.
tmr, i have school. so i'll be alright.
im fucking almost fucking sure i'll be alright.

told you not to push the lying too far. i told you.

maybe its just my imagination
who wouldn think you'd stop loving me
who wouldn think i'd stop loving you

hey, now maybe we can be more than friends,
it doesn matter to her, doesn matter to me either
so make your move lady.

come heartbreak, hit me with your strongest
and leave her alone.
she is prolly too selfish to feel you
hit me, i'll take her blow for her

thankyou.

wna share the air i breathe?

i love you.
but i wont anymore. goodbye.
i was willing to go through the pain for you again
but you aren willing to do it for me.
wait hey we're back to the same thing again.
sorry but now, im
Gone, like you said.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

the bedside

yesterday seemed so long ago. fuck time

its four am and im waking up to your perfume

you can lie, just dont push it too far

i can hardly tell you im okay at least till yesterday
and you know you caught me off my highest guard

he's all over you, now why's that.

im trying to disappear. im almost alive, im almost dead
i’ll give you my heart on a string, Do you want it? tell me, go ahead.

maybe it's just me, couldn you believe that everything I said and did, wasn just deceiving and the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

now repeat after me: jump aim stab


im invinsible im strong im hercules
i can do this
(if self denial works, im all for it)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

sing to me, speak softly now

okay school starts Thursday, ( tmrw) ): fboring
and okay lets see!

Monday 15102007
spent it with euge (:
we went vivo, saw her little favourite hamsters (: and her favourite dog (:
(she likes a lot of things)
we went to watch balls of fury (:
and these are moments i’ll never forget
cos you’ve got yourself engraved right in this heart baby -mlfl

one day you and i will be free, to live and die by our own rules
im almost alive and i need you to try, and save me its okay that im dying
but i need to survive, tonight <3

im desperate for your voice,
would you pop over here and whisper something into my ear baby?
-sure baby, anything for you :)

Remember what you whispered baby?

I was born, to tell you I love you <3
just died in your arms tonight.


iloveyoubutidontknowhowthisdistanceisgnasolveanythingbabywouldyou
pleasethinkaboutitineedyoutotsupportmetogothroughthiswithmebutyourenot
youreleavingmeheretosinkand
youexpectmetodobetterthanihadyoueuge
youknowitsclearlyimpossibleineedyou
andidonowmorethaneverpleasethink
ifweloveeachotherhowsthisdistancepossiblewearejustgnakilleachother
withtheheartacheseverynightandiknowhowpainful
itiscosihavetogothroughittooiloveyoubabyifidontgetyoubackimgnaregretallmylife
imnothingwithoutyoucosyouremyeverything
-mlfl
(dontbother reading, cos its too small)

Remember what you called me yours at the bus stop?

Tuesday Wednesday
tuesday morning was horrible I tell you
i couldn find it, i was so desperate i just sat there flipping everything
fibre dust there is and crying even my maid got scared cos i refused to eat or drink
haha i never eat breakfast and lunch.
its alright. I gotta make it even if I gotta fake it.

Class chalet (:
Went over with Nicole and shan and becks (:
-tons of fun, in the rain and KFC -nic left after KFC like fivethirty.
-went to play arcade and me becks and shan are like pros at photo finder
-we tired ourselves playing rounds after rounds of basketball hahahaha

At night, we slept like for two hours at five.
Woke up in the morning at seven and the whole class went to eat macs breakfast tgt
Hahahaha we’re so fun. (:

"if only you were there with me baby.
if only you knew how much im missing you."

afternoon with lala and junyan and albert at pool
VEH FUN RIGHT! I so pro I tell you! Haha im just kidding
im playing again tmr! whee! I love pool!

remember please. we're friends. like we've always been.
theres no reason or room for exception. NO.
i think its all wrong. shouldn have been there
i'll sing the right song, and say the perfect words to make you melt, to make you come back
i will, when i have the strength to go on with this again.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, October 11, 2007

she broke my heart so i broke his jaw

"im not missing you, im not going through the motion, waiting & hoping you'd call me"

PROMOS ARE OVER (:

no more school till who cares when! (:

hey, if i see you again, and again
maybe i will. (:
with the face of an angel, girl
you deserve to be treated more than right.

liar liar, burn in hell

stupid hy went for you know and made TP wait for me for two hours
im sorry shan, this is public apology! ):
and sorry scratchy for not returning call, cos i had things to settle ):
tp can testify!

boy, im sorry if i was a little harsh,
but this's the way things are.
its life, take it as it comes.
im sorry. its about all i can do to help.

WHEN I SAID 'YES', I MEANT FOREVER MORE

cos i know where you've been, and i know what you've done with him. i hope its worth what we lost. take your time with your goodbyes, cos this will be the last time i stand by with eyes closed tight. -loverhater

hahahah hannahh! i think i see my photos there on your blog! love me right! (:

sometime next week reserved for 125
another time next week reserved for huiyun nash mary jihui
another time next week reserved for kel and chicken and all
another time next week reserved for sarah and tiong
another time next week reserved for scratchy and TP

all these time i would reserve for you if you had wanted it too.

sarahbaby! evidence you say i cute, locked, stored in my phone! (:
HAHA NOW I WIN (:

anytime you wna go, i'll go with you.

i suddenly rmbr scratchy being a nehneh and i was rolling down the slope at bishan lib. and i swear we werent drunk and scratchy push me somemore and tp you just laugh ): hahahahahaah we should have filmed it (:

i think im gna love next week best ;)

this party's going south, let me know
whats going on with us

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, October 8, 2007

<3

when im with you
i'll make every second count
cos i miss you
whenever youre not around.
come back,
im not done giving you all that i have
and if i fall
through these nights
i cant seem to go on
just a sign that youre with me
gives me the strength
to hold on

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

you tell a tale

I have to move on, & be who I am
What if I fell to the floor; couldn take it anymore. What would you do?

If I told you it was killing me, would you stop?

Afternoons almost everyday with joy and shan are wheeeee-ness! (:

Econs paper was buhoo!
Hahaha whats GDP? (ask me, I gave a stupid ans.)

Tmr I have no paper! Wed and Thursday ):

<3cratchy!>
Cant wait for the at-nights (:
Haven decided which one we going,
But who cares!
Lets go anywhere
Just take me anywhere
Please

Rid this soul of its pain; take me away

its tiring im tired really tired

i dont care who you are, where youre from
what you did, as long as you love me.

hey you, long time no see, howve you been,
yeah im alright. hah you know too?
yeah sure i miss her.
faithful? well thankyou. hah like it matters
huh what? no she doesn
yeah, im alright thankyou
new one? ha no.
mmm but yeah sure, hold up.
erm yeah i gotta go, bye.

run run run i'll see how far you'll get char,
we'll play a chase game

i'll tell myself that i dont miss you at all.
NOT LYING; DENYING& I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW
THAT YOURE GONE FOREVER

and yayaya all my fault can nothing is your fault, im always wrong ya eh thanks man like i dont have enough blame on me already thanks uh! not your fault, so dont ever say youre sorry. cos if you say its not your fault, you dont see why youre wrong, so you wont mean your sorry. ya so SORRY FOR MAKING YOU FEEL SO TERRIBLE while i had my gloriuous time flirting around and BREAKING THAT LITTLE PRECIOUS HEART OF YOURS ya sorry. not like mine wasn broken UH FUCK LIKE YOU CARE my fault sorry can

i like being angey (:

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Friday, October 5, 2007

promos

youre not alone,
there is more to this i know
you cant make it out
you will live to tell

whole week was major whee-ness going with shan! (:

met jae and weiwei today! and eliza the other! and kel and nat and meiling!


SCRATCHY AND TP! for being there, wet or dry.

schools nothing about it, and i've been studying.
much, a lot, well yeah.
im done with econs and half of maths and history.

and weeks been almost perfect
counting out the stress (:

BESTEST <88
please dont be a stupid fuck. ASK ME before you do anything okay. ):<
dont screw yourself and her up, for nothing. ):
people you love, dont come by easy. trust me.

<3cratchy and TP
im sorry, i just dont fell like talking now.
but i'll be alright. thankyou.
lollipops!

MLFL<3,
and this week with you was it that made it almost perfect,
i might not ever dare to say this in front of people as much anymore
but i love you baby. i fucking do. but i guess theres nothing i can do about it anymore. maybe its the best thing, for me to happen to see those text, didnt exactly made my day, but yeah. just had the feeling before. and i proved myself right. with my own eyes. you might never get the pain, i dont blame you. if i never loved you, i wouldn have been so upset seeing you so broken and came back everytime. our breakups never lasted one day you realise. i love you, i really do. they dont think its my fault, but maybe it is. well im sorry. but this heartbreak i thought i got over is back. i'll live with it, and it'll go away. yeah ha i guess we'll stay this way. i've always wanted you back more than anything. but if you still need him, i dont see the point of me, anymore. you like being loved, go ahead. maybe one day, when you see her texts, you'll get it.
i love you, i fucking hell do.

yours stolen, your LFL <3,>

&shes the rythmn in my mind, the beat of my heart
i need her like how the sun needs to shine
i love her like the blood in my veins

you are my love for life, and i'll never forget you
stay with me, dont ever leave now

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>