Saturday, September 29, 2007

heels over head

i dont wanna touch anybody else
but kissing you is a drug bad for my health
and its over, over, so over its killing me

g e n t l y s l i e n t l y i m d y i n g i n s i d e

im alright. im gonna make it.
even if i gotta fake it
im alright im gonna make it.
even if i gotta break it.

muse's "Cant take my eyes off you" is cute (:

bestest birthday yesterday was rushrushblast! (:
hahaha stupid tan and me just scrambling to find the lighter to light the sparklers la
and the balloons were just everywhere hahahaha
and her dad got annoyed with us (:
HAHAHA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE! YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU BEST! (: <88 forlife

and bestie im sorry i broke rule one two three four and five ): i couldn help it ):

and i changed number, ask me! (:

haha lala i really didnt recognise him!
yy, i think he ought to get you smtg instead
quit the toll on your heart yes yes!
and sarah! haven seen you in long! you owe me a lot of kissy(ies)!
sorry luh, i know im stupid. ):

went to school in the morning with lynard.
lunched with murali daryn and lynard\
and they say those who do not listen to others about their lovelife, are good.
whoa i think im best luh hor, i never listen to anyth you guys say.

bought johnny for euge again (:
then then went to school put bag,
then went to meet her to pass her johnny
then boy was so nice to pass me my bag at longjohns
yeah, then play play with baby (;
and i never do work. but haha who cares! when im with her! (:

"i love you, i do."

"SHES THE BLADE, AND YOURE JUST PAPER."

im at her mercy
im at her feet
for just one more chance
please, this i beeseech

her love is my sweetest sin, do you all understand?

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, September 27, 2007

poopoo

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

we've got nothing left to prove

"i think i was born for you to love me."

oh my effing hell
i am about to die of major stress bloc

Promos are next week and I fucking have SO much left to do
i need to complete all my tutorials and all the exercise
so that I can be half as prepared as anyone else
and that’s only for my maths

History, I swear is gone-case
Econs, I double swear is double gone-case
Literature, I think I might be able to pass that.
GP, I need to read one whole THICK book
Kill me somebody, anybody.

Lets see, yesterday I ponned school
Went back to stnicks to study, BUT I hardly got anything done.
Met up with kel, who went to study ):
And becks donk! yeah me her Nicole and ee shan went to playground
And we were like toppling all over each other
And we played dare or double dare, so we naturally kissed everybody!
(Nicole secretly wanted to French sarah the cat HAHAHA)
and I saw euge (: wheeheehee

“_________________ ’’
this is what describes you.
No word can describe you baby. (:

So this morning, I sent my darling sister to her class
And I quickly secretly went to find euge’s class
And then I met her and wished her goodluck all (:
And then I ran back to the car!
Wheeheehee!

yeah then haha I obviously was late for school
but who cares! surprises to make someone special's day (:

yeah major cramming teaching with mr goh
my brains hurt like ):

And Nicole play play with hannahh until fall down
Then fat fat hannahh sat on nicole’s shin
And she was injured!

Hahaha oh god, haha I think you can see photos on hannah’s livejournal!

and no baby, i never stayed at her house.
and i dont meet up with her so often anymore
please dont anyhow think.

and believe me when i say i love you
maybe im living a lie on my own
but i know youre my only truth.

"dont take too long to say i-love-you to
the ones you love,
cos time has a habit, of slipping away."

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, September 24, 2007

a lonely september

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

one am

'' with a ciggarette in one hand, and the phone in the other
half waiting for her text to come in''

its a nice feeling standing at the grills
watching smoke coming outta my hands
overlooking the carpark
feeling the darkness and stillness of the night
half wishing for her reply
seeing the light, after the puff
watching two people finding their way
the causeway, searching for the light thats mine
eyes intent at the steady trail of smoke
thinking of her, thinking of things we'd do
oh, those days
inhaling and inhaling, trying to find that same high
to get my mind on someth else i'd try and try
does she still, ah forget it

my second time staying over and all for the wrong reasons

i have to type really softly so jihui wouldn wake up

what do i want? what am i waiting for?
give her to him, you love her so move on
get over the crying the drying the dying

hey, im trying im trying

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

whoooo!

im not going home today
cos of daddy. fuck.

yeah so im here :)

and huiyun's a bitch.
me jihui staying over.
haha like camp like that :)

BESTEST! <88>:(
i need to talk to you, now and here. bestie where are you.

yeah, i got a lot of things on my hands.
a lot of shit at my feet.
ahhahaahhhaaaahh okay im a bit nuts :)

I HAVE NO MORE THANKS TO THOSE FOOLS. >:( pfft.

i love you too.
but no more please. i dont wna go through all that torture again.
after exams, get with him. and you'll be happy.
or thats what i think. you said so baby. you said so.

OKAY I GO STUDY. MISS JIHUI IS ABOUT TO SCOLD ME.

LATER! (:

''i am finding out that maybe i was wrong
that i've fallen down and i cant do this alone
stay with me, this is what i need, please?
sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
we could sing our own but what would it be without you?
i am nothing now and it's been so long
since i've heard A sound, the sound of my only Hope
this time i will be Listening.
this heart, it beats. beats for only you.''

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Friday, September 21, 2007

thanks for these memories

yeah hey baby

i miss you too
i love you too
but like you said, its time to let go, its time to forget.

he'll take my place, he loves you
so let him love you
cos it cant be me anymore

go baby, and you know i love you
and i miss you like crazy
and i want you here beside me

its stupid tryna look out for you everywhere i go
whoever im with

and i love you.
i miss our memories
baby, remember those,
cos its all we have left.

honey. you and i, we have to go.

"youre my living essence.
but now youre gone, same like how dying is a waste of life,
my living is a waste of death "

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

fall and crawl

'gotta mean it when you say what you want'

im at huiyun's house cos that lazy thing took half day leave to go home sleep
she is stupid and lazy
and nash and mary are here too :)

'my grandson' stuck his hands into his pants to check how many dicks he's got HAHAHA

oh i met leanneteo that bitch (: last night. yeah.
i called her a bitch and so she HAD to call me a biutch (bee-utch)

hahaha and i just remembered fun facts :)
daryn has an inner passion for sheep and horses
(he secretly wants to hav sex with them)

HAHAHAHA

im feeling so much happier today.

and hey, remember about trust.
im just friends with her yeah, so please my dear dont get the wrong idea.
it hurts to see you so sad and i dont want to yeah. cheerup please, :)

WELLO WORLD IM GNA DECIDE I SHOULD GO EAT DINNER THAT HUIYUN COOKED
can you believe she can cook.
mary: we're all gna die.

HAHAHA WHO CARES, ALL THE BETTER RIGHT! (:

okay huiyun's eggs that she cooked tasted like horrible horrible. plack!

''if you feel the same way, then how can we be friends?
when i, i would promise to love you now,but i would lovingly let you down...''

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, September 20, 2007

who are you

"now its your turn, take a shot
baby, show me everything that you got
maybe you can keep me alive
maybe you can get in my mind
but its only a matter of time"

today hmm not much hardly got down to any work

rushed through lit, gotta copy another act again. :(

lets see, major crapping with xiaotian
play play play
couldn concentrate doing maths

fucking tired. i'll just study tmr. (and thats what i say everyday)

hmm, things to look forward to:
1) maybe, just maybe, meeting jie and baby shanna
2) going to j8 and runnung into cassiebaby, so i can actually laugh
3) going back st nicks with nicole, to study maybe?
4) meeting bestie, for a heart to heart talk (:

yeah, life sucks.
its tiring tryna get unstuck, to get out of the stuck.
haha okay i think i dont make sense.

"i've got your hair on my pillow
and your smell in my sheets
and it makes me think about you
with the sand in your feet
is it all you thought it'd be?
you mean everything to me"

"im learning to fall
i cant hardly breathe
so when i'm going down dont worry 'bout me
dont try this at home
pretend you don't see
i dont want to know that you know, it should have been me"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

this that us

hey life,

i'd like to plead with you on a certain thing.
okay i know this sounds absurd but i need it.

please stop getting me into the middle of EVERY FUCKING situation
cos its not fun being middleman.
nothing goes right.
i just wna be there, alive.
not too much to ask for is there.

i just wna have fun
and get myself outta this misery
out of this heartache
out of this skin
just being anyone, but me. do you get it?

theres something wrong with daddy
he's being weirdly weird.

theres something wrong with my friends
and i dont like seeing people upset.
it can be me, but not anyone else

and oh god, stop the rumours please
they are not true, fucking not true.
i never did such a thing, not with her.
stupid people.

last thing, please please
let her know i love her
more than anyth else
and i want her,
but she doesn want me.

well, thats all. hey life, do you hear me?

today was alright
chinese lessons were like hanging lanterns HAHA
photo-taking was whoa HOT (literally stuffy, wearing suits okay!)
yeah, then project work. did NOTHING
unless you count playing arnd on friendster
and talking with xiaotian about the DUMBEST THINGS POSSIBLE.
haha yeah, then down to woodlands lib to meet huiyun then home.

maryboy calls me
HAPPY LITTLE TROOPER :)

nash is COLONEL SANDERS :)
and princess sophie is still PRINCESS SOPHIE :)

nashboy says i can hide emotions really well, even though everybody thinks im really alright cos im high and jumpy and crazy, he knows im upset. yeah.

BOY! you love your little bung! (:
LALA! you dont angry luh!
NICOLE! our little plan, hair styling tmr yeah! (:

"and theres a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up
and theres another around to help us bend your trust
got a sunset in my veins
and i need to take a pill to make this town feel okay"

i love you baby. you know i do.
and maybe you need to hear me say it to believe it
just like how i need you to.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, September 17, 2007

SEW MY NAME

"nobody knows how much youre of a queen and why i love you baby."

i never get chased out of house. daddy came to fetch us all home in the end
and fool jihui doesn know where she live. THAT FOOL.

haha yeah then got home, read a bit of maths went to sleep.
farking tired ):

test this morning was hahaha i dont know how to do!

jihui la! play with me last night still dance in front of me cos she was desperately trying to cry. pfft.

lets see, nash, mary, huiyun, lynard, nicole
haha i think i kissed everybody alr except mary and lynard!
haha got kissy from sarah! (:
THIS IS SO CORNY BOY! (:

today during pe, okay lets not talk about it
but yeah thank you lala for being there (: and debbie (: thank you kerine for tissue (: and yuenyee and meini and nana for saying the usual dumb things (: yuenyee! you unfaithful i divorce you uh! (:

im alright im alright. thankyou all.

i love you bestie! (: go see bestest's blog! (:

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other?
you'll always be my thunder, and i said
your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
i dont wanna ever love another
you'll always be my thunder
so bring on the rain
and bring on the thunder

hey bitch, i love you.
do you know, do you even care
how im surviving how im dying
you dont care, so yeah.

come, lets go.

"and i said, kissed her kissed her"


yayayayayayayayayayay
((:
xuelin and feng has invaded char's comp
hahahahahahahah
okay this is retarded. (x
we love you :D

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

stop getting up for a let down

hellowello (:

im at huiyun's house at eleven fifteen in the fucking night.
daddy doesn wna fetch me. so if i get chased out, haha i either go back her house, or go jihui's house! (:

school was boring.
ytd nash and lynard went my house and we bought baby's clothes for nash (:
but it was fun (:

today today,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NASHBOY! (:

funny, just a bit emo with huiyun just now at the block.
yeah.

anyhow yeah back at huiyun's and LYNARD AND MARY whipped up a meal at her house for nash!
and we had prawns drunked in CHIVAS oh dang, hot stuffs! (:
THEY CAN HAVE A COOKING SHOW FOR THEMSELVES LUH.

studying in the room with jihui was UNPRODUCTIVE! (:
HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA secret secret* (:

okay if i get chased out, you'll see another post (:

LATER!

''youre my inhale, exhale''

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Saturday, September 15, 2007

140907

"im back in the class falling out of your past
all the letters that I wrote and you thought as a joke
and the phone never rings when youre cold and it stings
all the holidays suck by myself cause I am fucked
and I'm dying, dying, dying"

Fridays are major breaks day!
had literature and maths tutorial
then gp, no teacher (:
did homework

fetched bestie into school COS THAT FOOL'S SENSE OF DIRECTION SUCKS!

then we went to the block for the usual (:
finally proper ones (;

played pepsi-cola 123 you know that kids game
fool of nicole won hahahahahah jihui just scream everytime she jump

haha oh, and bestie approve of her (:
she say she's nicer, but heh you'll see when you know her better.
i still love her you know. thankyou i know i suck.

with nash nicole huiyun me and bestie cabbed to huiyun's house
cab ride was corny we were all just talking lesbian things
and huiyun still keep trying to create spark with me
GIVE UP! (:

at her house, play play talk to bestie (:
i love you bestie (:
wipe those tears away,
i'll pave a smoother path for you right the other way.

sooooo, we went j8
i pierced my ears huiyun pierced her nose
hahahaha

then out for a toot,
met na yuai abby and I NOT BAD INFLUENCE OKAY!
then met cassiebaby! (: (after exams yeah!)

eat eat and off to liquid kitchen
bought my first pack (:
THE MOST irritating thing today was
huiyun, doing LEGAL everyth illegal in the PAST. ):
UNFAIR and im still 16. ): fark.
hardly got drunk pfft.

hey bestest,
i hope youre feeling better. and im sorry i couldn tell you what to do cos i dont. and i dont want you to end up like me, regretting it. so as far sa you can hold on, do it. but when its too painful and you cant, you'll know whats best for yourself yeah. i love you bestie, and i dont want too see you so hurt and upset. remember what i said, youve got to believe in yourself, cos you have me believing in you. tell her what she means to you, and how you never want to let her go. and you miss her and you want her all to yourself. cos love is selfish if youre selfish, guess its love. you can do this bestest, <88

"well im back for some more round two was a bore
and youre driftin away cause you want it that way
and im picking up pieces of hearts that completely
are broken in two so it must have been you
while youre lying in bed with somebody new"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, September 13, 2007

your guardian angel

cos youre my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please dont throw that away
cos im here for you
Please dont walk away and, Please tell me you'll stay

for all the things you had to steal and borrow.
Bring back the days we had before tomorrow

into the day this life is going to change seems like its taking me forever.
and i cant hold on. this life is breaking.

her eyes are watering
(she) said we're better off this way
things change
it's happening everyday
he'll come and take my place and show you things that i just couldn face
we'll sit and sing a song of what we did wrong.

come bring back yesterday and live it again
come sit here with me, see the stars with me
come tell me the worst is over, everyth will get better
bend my will again then mend it straight

maybe im just insane

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

wear me down - son of dork

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

kiss and tell

oh boy oh boy!

TODAY WAS HELL LOT OF FUN!!!

haven enjoyed myself in a long time like this.

lit lessons were corny maths, haha i listened (:
history, i think i listened, or brought my tutorials for that matter (:

Then GAYA'S CAKE!

hahaha my face got cake on it
and so we started the food thing so everybody's face got chocolate of somesort!
hahaha i got cake on my nose my shirt my forehead my cheeks
and foolhell i almost got thrown into the fish pond,
AND ITS NOT EVEN MY BIRTHDAY!

i dare not DARE NOT think whats gna happen on mine
im quite light you know! ):

Yeah then after school study study
then boys (you know boys) got to talking bout some people masturbating or smtg
and laughing and laughing and laughing
then nash piggyback me and RAN (i hate it when they do that cos i have that fear they'll just drop me half way)
ya la so they ran, and lynard piggyback daryn, and we were like on bouncer cars bouncing here and there! HAHAHAHA

daryn: i wna screw the pond
char: HUH WHY!
daryn: cos its big and wet!

hahahah whalao! damn sick can!

after that, the boys got into the girls toilet and we took a photo
then the girls got into the boys toilet and we took a photo
hahahahaha so funny i tell you

then on our way back home, we just scream like we dont give two fucks luh
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! try beating the high pitch one from daryn!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! TRY BEATING MINE! (:

haha we screaming damn happy
we: AHHHHHHHH!
someone from in the block: OI!
char: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

hahaha then me and nash ran and ran and ran!

oh god so funny luh im so tired today!

nash is an awfully bad shopper.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

anyone, just anyone

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

love of mine

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

whore

fuck you. fuck off.

fucking tired today.
slept three hours last night tryna finish my literature
fuck

well i listened during maths and econs lecture today

and am in a terrible mood
like i can slap any face right about now.

think about how youre upset,
what are you doing to me first.

stayed back with huiyun and jihui and nash today
not veh productive leh
so ima study later
fuck life

debbie dear, dont worry
one day soon, you'll be so numb you wouldn know what youre feeling
viod of all emotions and then, nothing can hurt you
just like me (:
cheer up alright.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, September 10, 2007

fallen love

i will never let you fall
i'll stand up with you forever
i'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

breathe the air; fill me in

they say," whatre you waiting for, kiss her kiss her."

today is monday.
couldn wake up in the morning.

lessons were okay
i really need to start studying for promos
I DONT WNA RETAIN
(not a bad thing eh bestie! -winkwink)

ehhemm
yeah me and shian got haha scolded for talking during econs
(she telling me interesting story see)
yeah ponned CT
went to buy bubbletea :)

then
i sat down
and did an amazing thing
i did a timetable
can you believe it.
yeah so i got down to studying almost immediately :)
like wow!

nashboy was there with us!
so here's snippets of stupid conversations:
nash: huiyun why you so scared of cats?
(ya huiyun's scared of cats)
huiyun: uh! i dont know.
nash: hmmm, HAH i know!
i think you were a mouse in your past life!

corny bastard!

The ribbon on my wrist says, "Do not open before Christmas."

drink down that gin and kerosene
and come spit on bridges with me
just to keep us warm
light a match to leave me be

the only thing worse than not knowing
is you thinking that i dont know
im having another episode
i just need a stronger dose

i swear i'd burn the city down to show you the lights
are you gna be here tonight

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, September 9, 2007

happy birthday

she aint heavy, shes my sister.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Saturday, September 8, 2007

don't say you love me cos i don't wna hear it even though i love to hear it i want to hear you whisper it right in my ear telling me you love me you want me you need me i don't wna read it in the text i wna feel you say it i don't know how im gna do this i can't help but fall everytime i see you so eager to get me to go its painful you know but i doubt you give a damn i'll go i'll see how long i'll last watch me

//

"maybe she's just tired. she needs to live her own life too, char. and you too

you gotta let go of some things when the time comes. you don't expect yourself to hang on forever till you're old and gray waiting and praying she'll be there with you. i know its awfully hard but there's no point watching waiting wanting praying when you know deep down she don't love you no more and doesn wna come back

we live, we die. that only happens once. you'll find somebody when you move on proper, when your heart begins to heal"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Friday, September 7, 2007

a little too late

lets drown it all in smoke and drinks
and pray we forget our subtle beings

first, i have HAVE TO talk about ytd,
i cant really remember what happened
but WHOA, FUN LIKE !@#$$%^#$&*%##@#$%@$%^%$*()(*)*@#$@##$^%^&!

WE GOT so so wasted :) we were crazy kissing everybody i swear!

we ate pizzzzzzaaaaa, huiyun mummy paid hahaha then we blow cake :)

then i acted sober all in the car and so did nash and lynard.
hahaha went home,
jihui called me
so i talked.

jihui: hello?
char: heeeellllllooooo :)
jihui: oh my god, aiyo are you drunk?
char: hahahahaha noooooooooo!
jihui: you so are la!
char: hahahahaha noooooooooo!

woke up like 430 then 1130
supposed to study with nashboy, but im lazy.

haha next friday same thing.
i love fridays! lets get wasted!

if i said smtg wrong, sorry.

i miss you.

but no wait, if you can leave me like this
and can see me like this
and can live without me
and its all wishful thinking on my part
then i think i can live without you too.
or i'll try at least. or something.
lets be heartless together, sounds like fun :)

dang, whats wrong with me.

"im sorry baby, no i dont believe we can happen again, im just thankful i had you once sweetheart. and this, my last, i love you char, i love you spikey. goodnight precious, sleep tight. you'll be in my prayers, i love you."

"i dont know but i love you i really do i really swear its crazy."

" i love you so so much dont hate me okay baby. i love you. my hearts all yours dont forget dont hate me goodbye baby i love you"

"i want nothing more then to sit outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing"

you say you love me. what are you doing to me.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

tonight i've fallen

here we are at the crossroads once again
you're telling me you're so confused
you can't make up your mind
is this meant to be
you're asking me

in your arms as the dawn is breaking
face to face and a thousand miles apart
i've tried my best to make you see
there's hope beyond the pain
if we give enough, if we learn to trust

i know if I could find the words
to touch you deep inside
you'd give my dream just one more chance
don't let this be our last goodbye

i need you now
and tomorrow is too late
in you I've found
a million reasons i can't wait

i hope you feel better being alone
just wna let you know i love you honey

i still feel your lips on my cheek,
and your breathing right at my lips.
whats holding you back,
whats keeping this pain.

where are you baby,
i love you tonight and everynight.

<3

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, September 6, 2007

believe me.

will you want a life time,
with only memories
of your loved one?

no, you bastard.

i believed i was born
for you to love me
and me to love you.
but my lifetime is not over, is it?

today was studying at causeway
with huiyun and jihui and brenda

me and huiyun smartly forgot to bring our maths book hahahaha
and giving her lessons on hahahaha she knows what.

yeah came back, go chickens house.
she change from 630 until 800 LUH
poorthing la her boyfriend

and then i rmb previous christmas, same thing happened :)

yeah downstairs for a little smtg, then off home home! :)

where are you tonight?
its a long talk today, i think.
its the same. how long can i hold out for?
hmm baby?

im in love with you.
look into my eyes, you'll know how much i want this.
this, with you.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

its okay

IF ANYONE COULD MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON YOU COULD

im at huiyun's house.
and she told me something funny! (:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

just now, daryn and lynard were like plucking their leg hairs off
WHALAO DAMN GROSS CAN!

i like ginger beer!

we are fucking broke we are like looking at some coupons
and then we realised its expired.

im sorry i cant be all you want me to be
cos if i could, i would be.
im sorry its taken its toll on you
cos i never wanted it too
im sorry we cant be together
just like how you and i want it to be
im sorry for all the pain
i never meant to hurt you

and i love you, with all my heart all my soul
i know you love me too baby. i know.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Weekends was wild.
Saturday dxo play play play play
Sunday woke up, lynard still asleep
Watch movie, play xbox with his brother I lost like mad la. Pfft!

Went to j8 macs, met cassie and andreasmtg talk talk talk talk
Then sat down ate, then study study
Wait for jihui, study study study
Wait for huiyun and nash, study study study

Then went home like eleven plus. And poof, slept.

Monday
Sleep sleep sleep
Wake up eat lunch
Study a while
Sleep sleep sleep
Wake up eat dinner
Study study study
Cry cry cry cry
Until two plus, sleep cry sleep cry sleep
Fuck Monday

Tuesday
Wake up
Lit lesson, hahaha end up talking with Nicole outside
Then meet jihui :)
She study study
I play play play with Nicole
Then went to bk
Study study study
Jihui them went to starbucks

Nash and huiyun were complete idiots
Nash was tryna find his spiderman face on his boxers
And huiyun was tryna see the colour of her bra
Wth right.

School later again with the same people.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Son, fear is the heart of love.

Well you caught me off guard.
Im running and screaming, but to nowhere.

Is it all fake?
Why, I’ve always been true
Is your pride coming your way?
Why, there wasn any in me when it came to you
Is being angry with me just an excuse to see him?
Why, where am I in that heart of yours?

Are you waiting for my text baby?
Cos im sitting right here, waiting for yours too.

Are you missing me?
Cos im missing you.

Are you cold tonight?
Cos I wna put my arms around you to keep you warm.

Or maybe you have someone else to do that for you.

Maybe all the good for me things are just excuses,
Maybe it’s the time when you don’t love me anymore
Maybe it’s the time I stop relying on love, cos its failed me.

Well thanks for baring my soul and killing every cell left,
Cos its so bare and numbed, I don’t feel any pain.
Not like three months ago.
Im stronger I believe
What doesn kill you, it makes you stronger.

Your love is my sweetest sin, it’s the air I breathe.
And maybe I still rely on it.
your ‘i-love-you’s to me are enough to keep me going.
Stop char stop

i miss you you know

Memories are sickening, they bring back pain
They suck every breath every gasp I try to take in
and every visible essence of life in me

live with it char.

Baby dear honey sweetheart precious darling sweetie spikey
Its yesterday, come now lift that heavy eyelids
we need to see where we’re going.

Patience kills your soul, drags the pain, and doesn give you anything in return.
Not even the bitch youre fucking in love with. Fuck patience.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Saturday, September 1, 2007

and i'll promise i'll try. you?

and i love you
do you know

"i'm sorry baby" -is that all you can say?

theres only so much i can say, the rest is up to you.
you have to want this to work
before anyth can work.

what about this love we need so badly
what about this "us" we still have
what about this that you promised me you'll try, before?
what am i gna do now
is it really me that you need?
then where are you, what are you doing, why wont you try, why wont you try

maybe you want him back, well if its so
tell me when it happens.

everybody tells me to tell you to make up your goddamn mind.
dont blow hot and cold, not fun, no no not fun at all.

do you get it?
do you get me?

my baby,
its such a home feeling when i call you that,
like no other could be called
its a you and me thing (or at least thats what i thought)
it feels like we're safe
and we can hold out forever
"my baby"
do you hear the comfort, hear the warmth?
"my baby"
and maybe i should stop calling you that.

we'll see how long you can hold out again this time,
when you cant, give a text.
and i'll rush to your side,
to ease that pain of your heart
cos i've felt it so many times before and so i know.

i love you, euge.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

does it matter to you

do you know what it feels like,
loving someone who's in a rush to throw you away

do you know what it feels like,
to be the last one to know the lock on the door is changed

like do you give a fuck.
doubt you'd think i would not go home did you.
then now you know,
cos this's not the way to treat your child
not this way.
not that i know any child that would like to be treated this way.

anyway, its ten in the morning,
slept late late late last night.
whoa, friday saturday sunday all see jihui (:
hahaha later again.

meeting jie later to get some clean clothes
and my hair is messy )":

i was just worried but hah who cares right
wheres my baby tonight,
is she thinking of me like i am thinking of her
is she missing me like im missing her
am i constantly on her mind, like she is on mine
or am i just a dumb fuck, with wishful thinkings on my part.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

killing me softly

its a love i cant give up.
its a love i need to live.
its a love i cant deny.

where are you today when i need you so badly.

im tired im tired

"i need you in my life
cos i breathe you to survive
baby youre my everything my all
and i'll love you forevermore"

whats holding you back from the love you need so badly
whats keeping you there on the other side
why dont you come back and lay your tired head on my shoulder
why dont you take a step forward, i'll grab you so tight and pull over

im loving you completely,
this is so unbelievable
and i dont wna let it go

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

i hate life

okay this's for friday (:

twas teachers day but stnicks had power failure ):
fuck hell, then went to meet kel and nat and meiling
for dim sum!
felt so yesterday, you know, like our old times
just that it was orangebowl instd.
i miss it man. dang.

yeah then ratatouile with BESTEST! <88
she was so funny i tell you
bestie: oh my god i feel so scared for him!
hahahah

yeah then met chicken and kel outside cine for a bubbletea
and kel threw my shoe away cos she threaten me to play cards with her
which we got scolded for by some person.
WE LOVE CHEAP THRILLS! (:

THEN they left for chicken to buy her phone
and me and bestie went to woodlands
to find her darling and i went to meet jihui
at woodlands lib.

daddy called, scolded what fuck not.
fuck you fuck off.

yeah today i got chased out of house, most probably not going back till who knows when.
staying at friends place. going out clubbing i think. yeah then tmr morning i go lib study

GEEK IN THE MAKING (:

ah whatever la. sick of life.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

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