Tuesday, July 31, 2007

random rants

school was boring. except for nicole who created a blog and is damn dumb.
hahahaa we changed shoes and i went to CITY HALL in those two UNMATCHING SHOES.
damn embarrassing la!
left school with lynard huiyun and jihui ;)
went to meet yvonne at city hall :) ytd with lynard :)))

reached home late.
got daddy to buy white shoes.

did my gp essay until twelve
while texting that moron! :)

then i went to sleep!

so boring right. dang.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

this's whats left

i say:
i know i have to clear this mess up myself
i have to undo all the knots.
but the times i spent with her,
i wouldn exchange it for anything else
she might not think so
cos i always say how i regret it
well think.
how am i to feel
when i see them together
she and he
not she and me.i
think she'd feel the same
if she saw her and me
not she and me.
she wont come back
she wont understand the pain.
everyone's saying how dumb i am
doing all these for her
and how she's not worth it
how she's a slut, a cheap fuck
but in my eyes,
i love her cheap or not, slut or not
i think the only reason im still stuck here,
is that i still harbour the hope
that one day she might come backto cure this pain.
but wait, i guess she's more to healing his pain.
so maybe i need time to grab myself up from the sinking sand
and drown these tears in freezing water
so i'll be too numb to feel the pain
and these tears will go away.

they say:
theres actually nothing an outsider can do
& you know how they've called her a bitch a slut
& they never approved of your relationship with her
just that they've been there for the downfalls.
"no one's gna blame you for loving her."
afterall, you dont love someone cos they're perfect
you love them for everything they're not.
and maybe you should let go
by not talking to her at all
i know it kills but its what you have to do.
youre not just some toy
she picks back up for the let down
in another relationship.
maybe she'll want you back
but you'll have to force yourself
to say no.
because you cant let her do this to you.
see her one last time,
fix it into your memory
and leave her forever.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, July 30, 2007

you bloody bitch

hhahaaha i never train at all yesterday.
coach never come.
so we were talking bout CIP at ijtp :)
excite eh nash nash! :)
hahaha yeah then played a bit of ball and off to dinner
with shian marcus lynard and kerine

went home with lynard.
and i walked down that alley i broke up with you.
yeah then we went up to toilet, met lynard's friend.
she say i cute ;)
heehee yeah
but whatever, we sat down for coke, and we met na and yuai
and they just made a fool of themselves with jeremy!

nicole lim yan ru is a very smart girl she is damn pretty and damn cool hahas she does not like charlene who is a very naughty girl hahas charlene often bulllies nicole till she cries.bye bye

stupid nicole! FINISH YOUR ESSAY LA STILL TALK SHIT!

yeah then i went home, got locked out for like half an hour. stupid father then went to do maths then i went to sleep. oh my god i think i have a sad life dang.

nicole is so lame i tell you she created a blog she'll never ever blog again. whoa! DAMN LAME!

say you love me
say you'd die for me
say, he's all over you
say, youre all over him
say, youre a liar, youre a bitch


HEY MISS MURDER CAN I?
MAKE BEAUTY STAY IF I, TAKE MY LIFE

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

it's been one month since we broke up
one week since I last kissed you
one week since I last seen you
one week hershey's been with you
one day since I last received your text
one moment since I last thought of you

oh i can't forget this feeling
or your face as your leaving
but i guess that's just the way the story goes

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, July 29, 2007

red massacre

boring boring

going home with NASH on friday was FUNNY
we had these weird conversations, you wouldn wna know what we talked about
right nashboy. :)

saturday
was pool with kenny lynard debbie luke shian ty and yvonne :)
whalao we just adjust the ball anywhere we want la those fools!
hahahaha I AM COOL NERD YVONNE! :)

we went for flashpoint after that ;)
the place was so dark i couldn see lynard's face.

hi.this is sarah.i actually have no idea what i'm gonna type in here.i just feel like typin.
thanks char for giving me this opportunity to do random typin.
and i think you suck sometimes.
and pls.stay far far away from that girl.
get to far far away land.
the fairygod mother will definitely love you.

hello this is xuelin here.
i am charlene's good friend. HAHAHAHA.
she's laughing at me right now and she's such a total idiot sometimes.
so yeah ppl who knw her, patience is virtue.
endure her nonsense and everythinge else.
she's so not cute at all. ((:
she types too slow, walk too slow, talks too slow, eat too slow.
everything about her is SLOW SLOW SLOW SLOW SLOW.
slow slow SLOW SLOW SLOW.
hahahahahah. charlene loves simxuelin.
simxuelin loves charlene too. :DDD
P.S. aint you touched char? :DDDD

oh yes yes yes! sure sure sure! :DDDDDDD

oh god. AS I WAS SAYING!
me and lynard went to wait for yvonne and turner to come.
then we went, hahahaha never mind!

sunday was BORING
except for high school musical ;)

then i rmb how you'd sing the bimbo version, exactly like sharpays

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, July 26, 2007

things that never happened

BITCH

"at least i was her first choice, a decision she made
even though she isn my first choice"

it feels like only yesterday that you were lying here with me

yesterday's lessons were borrrinnnnggg
but went to school to meet bestie and hahahahahahahaha
so funny :)
i love going to school to find you bestie.
cheer up okay! :)
i tagged on your blog.
if you wna scream, i'll scream with you
if you wna cry, i'll tear a piece of cloth off my shirt to dry those tears.
and a stupid bird flew into neek's back. stupid bird.
hahaha see you sunday! :)

3RD AUGUST!
I CANT WAIT FOR IT BESTIE! HALF MONTH ALREADY OKAY! :) :) :)


haha dang,
i realised no one,
i mean NO ONE has approved me doing this, getting back.
but hey i love her, you all know that.
i dont know la dont ask me please.
imagine the pain, imagine the gain.

give my euge back to me
the one who loves me
miss me and
needs me so badly
that euge i fell in love with
the girl i am in love with
the girl who wouldn kill me so badly
give my euge back to me

remember that kiss and what it worked
what you told me four days ago, yeah sure.

oh, i miss my baby
i need you there. say you'll be there.
ride a jet over seas.
watching the clock every hour waiting to here from you.
i love you and i miss you.
would it be too much if i kiss you.
baby let me paint this picture, with you.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

chocolates and liquor

met euge the previous day
gave her hamster she called hershey.
and the book which everyone died together with me

thanks all (:
and lynard for all those windows you made out of those papers
and everyone else who said i was stupid and dumb or too sweet or a fucker
thank you! its over! :)

its was those bus rides
it was that hand
the kiss
that set me apart

i had a maths test ytd i lied to my dad i studied
i took a australian maths thing and they asked me
how many floors a building has
how far a bee walked
how to complete sudoko
whoa damn dumb.
we just talked through it and this guy was like
"eh come on! i paid five bucks to think!"
and we continued talking hahaha
i ate dinner like nine ten last night watching tv.
then i went to sleep cos i had a bad headache.

twas such a happy day yesterday
i saw her so many many many times :) :) :) :)
pretty right pretty right! :) :) :) :)
teeheeheehee!

this morning my dad sent me to school.
then all of us were sitting in the canteen and ganesh came
EVERYBODY RAN
whoa next time got fire he just step in, everybody run uh! FIRE also run uh!
HAHAHAHAHA debbie couldn stop laughing when i said that.

im so tired today.
and im going to meet maine later
oh yeah i told neek i'll be schooling on wed sorry!

i love nash! :)

"eew disgusting.
doesn seem like
you need me
like i need you
so okay i get it.
my last text with you
hmm say six am?
whatever luh."

haha oboy
char is angsty today
and when char's angsty...

when's dinner stelli!
make time for me eh! ;)
sure sure! :)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, July 23, 2007

with all my heart, i layed down everything i had

yesterday going home with nash was INTERESTING.
whahahahaha now i know now i know my boy isn that an angel afterall!
damn naughty. now now dont teach me bad! :)

shian and him click so well talking bout the most disgusting food they've eaten. hahaha fools

he said im doing this
well yeah okay
he said im doing that
well yeah okay
he said im doing this and that
well yeah okay
so? i did it all before.

"take your time
make you decision
i'd say follow your heart
but you might wna follow the other
i love you
you know i do"

if there was only one place to go with one person, that'd be you. we'll go away. just you and i.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

blind eyes shine bright

come up to meet you,
tell you im sorry
you dont know how lovely you are
i had to find you
tell you i need you
tell you i set you apart
tell me your secrets
and ask me your questions
oh lets go back to the start
running in circles
coming up tales
heads on a scilence apart
nobody said it was easy
oh it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be so hard
im going back to the start

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, July 22, 2007

its not so bad, youre just the best i ever had

i pon chinese to finish things up :)

mmm church was so boring ytd.
haha oh i met neek and her mom's nice! :)
see you on wed! :)

hhaaahah SSP IS THE DUMBEST THING ALIVE
i sat there for FIVE hours doing nothing but cutting tape and pasting paper and nobody caught me. now i have a whole long list of people wanting to be my girlfriend for the day JUST SO THEY CAN GET THAT BOOK. haha you crazy bunch of nutheads.
haha bobby you funny leh, dont see i sweet only then cry leh!
i start crying then you know uh!

i went to the national library tht day and met shian debbie junyan meini and dea all
we were at reference section so my sister's winx club bag was to put in the locker.
that bloody dumb fuck was like
nic: jie!
char: ha what?
nic: haha i feel so important!
char: WHY?
nic: cos i get to put thing inside locker!

haha crazy thing you!

"its not so bad, youre just the best i ever had"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Thursday, July 19, 2007

the greetings and goodbyes

oh boy i had so much fun at school with bestie yesterday!

and thank you lynard! :)

me and bestie went talking talking and she was a bit cranky
she went to play with the fire extinguisher and white foamy thing came out but then, cannot press the thing again :( nothing came out :(

haha then we went to walk on the roof some kid saw us and she was like oh my god
crazy bitch hahaha and maine hid sunset in the cupboard!
bestie stole a sushi for me from the art room! hahaha but bestie, i think its still with you dear!

after that was a stroll out at the void deck! (you know where we went what we did bestie!)
and i swear i think we looked super stupid okay like oh god. :)

later was MAJOR crapping with amanda chew neek and yuxuan i think! :)
they all just laugh at me la and they just take turns to be outcasts. dumb fucks!

but ohwells i had fun! relieved it a bit. :)

YVONNE! cheer up my dear! dont worry too much bout them alright!
i'll be here when you need me! :)

i wont go soft ever again for everytime you tell me you still love me and how you haven forgetten it all cos your actions tell a whole different story and i wont believe you again everytime i go soft i miss you so bad but i know you wouldn even take a glance back to see if we could start over but no you dont and im leaving this love behind even though it hurts like hell and i love you so so much but this's got to have an end so dont come saying i have a new number one cos you have one too and sorry but this is the reality of the pain that lingers . goodbye.

"dont take too long to say
i love you to the ones you love
cos time has a habit
of slipping away"

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

down the river to forget in hades

today i saw her today hahaha number one, yesterday was number two, hahaha less importance, and she said hi to me! :) :) :) :) :) :)

oh boy! im soooo happy! :))))))))))))

mornings with sarah and rocky are FUN! :) <33
AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT WE HAVEN WATCHED HARRYPOTTER SARAH! >:(

and im so screwed my dad wants to talk to almost all my teachers and fucking hell he doesn look like he's gna give me back my phone, so if he doesn, next tuesday i should be using the 9433 number again! :)

this morning lala tried to tighten my boobs when i helped her carry her back and she was behind me holding my bag up, so the strap like tightened my boobs, whalao!! :) ahahah kidding laaa :)

mmmm bestie! please cheer up, i dont want seeing you so sad alright :( please dont make rash decisions please! learn from your elders (me that is) and dont dont dont so sad alrights? :) i'll always be here for you whenever you need me :) i love you bestie! <3
"believe me when i say i'll never go, i'll never leave you alone."

i'll be just fine
pretending i'm not
i'm far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

never again

does it hurt
to know i'll never be there
bet it sucks
to see my face everywhere
it was you
who chose to end it like you did
i was the last to know
you knew exactly what you were doing
and don't say
you simply lost your way
he may believe you
but i never will
never again
nash said this poem on monday, he said it was a soccer cheer HAHAHAHA
it goes like this:
theres a place on mars
where the women dont wear bras
and the men, they dont care
cos they dont wear underwear
whaaaat the helll right!
hahaha i saw HER TODAY! :))))
and debbie all cut my shortage of supply of her :(
and i kept pouting after that :(
and lala angry with me :(
but then i came to the library, AND THERE SHE WAS! :) :) :)
teeheehee! :)
mmm hehehe, i burped super loudly at history lecture today, everyone just laughed la,
oh my god so embarrassing! but how i know it'd be so loud right! :(
hahaha no harrypottering today. but meeting shian to watch them do tabletennis then off to meet sarah and rocky to "study". ( which obviously will never happen ) hahahahaha
BYEBYE! :)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

To Euge, With Love

and just maybe you wont be reading this,
but i gotta get it outta me.
i can see youre happy with him now,
so i think i should find something that makes my day myself
and maybe, just maybe you still need me
but somehow i dont see it anymore.
so now i can have proper meals
proper conversations with my parents
proper time i should be going home
proper time spent with studying, or tv for that matter.
and now i can use all the money i've been saving
for that ring and hamsters that i was going to get for you
tonight, i will put that jacket thats layered with your smell into thewash
cos i dont want to be relying on it anymore,
smelling it like some drug every morning and before bedtime
im loving you missing you hell and your name's heavily deeply engraved in my heart
but i'll cover it with a whole new layer or granite and stone
so i wont feel and i'll heal
and i can carve someone else's name on it
so you'll only be buried somewhere deep deep within my heart.
i will write every thing that happened on paper
so everything wouldn have to be in my heart
i'll write it on paper and give it to you
so i wouldn have to remember anything i had with you
saying i'll forget will be a lie, but yeah thats it.
so someday i wont be so afraid when i clear out under my bed
afraid i'll dig up those past memories of you and find myself aching crying
so i'll leave on this note,
to tell you i love you i miss you i need you
like i always have, like i always will
but i think you'll wna have him in your life
so i think i shouldn fight anymore cos im so so tired.
but i love you.
so this's goodbye, one last time.
love, char

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Monday, July 16, 2007

this thing you call love

youve got the hating starting

hahaha this morning was so funny i tell you
i went up and down six cabins trying to find this cj or mi girl i saw that day
oboy, i think she took the earlier train rocky! next time, EARLIER TRAIN!

HAHAHA stupid nippleface wore such thin bra, amelia like had to put tissue as padding for her so they wouldn be so obvious HHAHAHAHA damn hilarious i tell you!

"this thing
it teaches me how to feel
how to give my all
how to feel hurt,
and yet give me a certain high-
like this sweet sweet sensation
that sends chills down my spine
its just this thing
i think they call it love"

this thing you call love,
consumed all my soul
leaving me hard and cold.
this thing you call love,
killed me all
with the same hard fall.
this thing you call love
left me hard and lonely,
cos youre my one and only.

lala dont cry
tears give you puffy eyes
lala dont cry
its not worth it to leave you dry
lala dont cry
i'll be here, all your life :) <3

cheer up prunellalalalalala <3

rocky today pool uh! :)

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>

Sunday, July 15, 2007

that box

i have a box,
thats locked up
somewhere in my heart.
inside are tapes of recording
of every moment
every sound
every sneeze
every yawn
every movement
that you make.
i placed it locked so deep
so only i would find it
so that those very same tapes
would play my favourite clips
over and over again.

could you trust me if i told you i love you.>