Wednesday, July 18, 2007

To Euge, With Love

and just maybe you wont be reading this,

but i gotta get it outta me.

i can see youre happy with him now,

so i think i should find something that makes my day myself

and maybe, just maybe you still need me

but somehow i dont see it anymore.

so now i can have proper meals

proper conversations with my parents

proper time i should be going home

proper time spent with studying, or tv for that matter.

and now i can use all the money i've been saving

for that ring and hamsters that i was going to get for you

tonight, i will put that jacket thats layered with your smell into thewash

cos i dont want to be relying on it anymore,

smelling it like some drug every morning and before bedtime

im loving you missing you hell and your name's heavily deeply engraved in my heart

but i'll cover it with a whole new layer or granite and stone

so i wont feel and i'll heal

and i can carve someone else's name on it

so you'll only be buried somewhere deep deep within my heart.

i will write every thing that happened on paper

so everything wouldn have to be in my heart

i'll write it on paper and give it to you

so i wouldn have to remember anything i had with you

saying i'll forget will be a lie, but yeah thats it.

so someday i wont be so afraid when i clear out under my bed

afraid i'll dig up those past memories of you and find myself aching crying

so i'll leave on this note,

to tell you i love you i miss you i need you

like i always have, like i always will

but i think you'll wna have him in your life

so i think i shouldn fight anymore cos im so so tired.

but i love you.

so this's goodbye, one last time.

love, char

come home to me
baby, ease this pain